Ah Love.

Monica got married this weekend.
Her & Lewis are the definition of the perfect couple.
The wedding was gorgeous...there were a few hiccups, but  nothing major...trying to be on time for a wedding in Chicago is next to impossible, though, gotta say.
But the wedding, reception, speeches (not to brag, but...hey), dancing, company...everything was absolutely perfect.

Then, of course, it got me thinking about things.  How I'm dating someone awesome, that I can truly see myself marrying one day...and then, I freaked out.
Words can't even truly convey how much I missed Nate yesterday.
I mean, I miss him all the time since we are long distance, and we didn't talk a whole ton this week b/c of his vaca w/his buddies, but for whatever reason, last night,I just wanted him there with me.
He definitely has a calming effect on me...I sometimes get high strung, but as soon as I hear from him or talk to him or see him, I somehow calm down and am soothed into a happy place (except last night when his energy level was a 10 and mine was a -3 at 4AM when we were on the phone).
So, as I was drinking, laughing, and dancing the night away w/some of my favorite people in the world, I kept missing my fabulous boyfriend in a way I didn't even know was possible.
Which, naturally, freaked me out some.
I've always prided myself on being strong and independent and not needing a man (other than my father) in my life.
But...maybe, MAYBE, missing Nate like I was is a good thing...I've "missed" boyfriends in the past, wanted to see them, but it was never this caliber of missing...I felt like a part of my happiness was missing for the night. (Don't get me wrong, I had a blast at the wedding and reception, loved every minute of it...but still)
Which also freaked me out.
It's only been like a month and half since we've been together! How can I care this much after only a month and a half?
But we just talked 3 different times this afternoon and after each time, I felt so much calmer.
Is this what a healthy, quality, real relationship feels like?
B/c I think I'm okay with that.
He tried his hardest to come see me last night but it just didn't work out.  He was considering coming to Downers Grove at 4am just to see me, but we ultimately decided he should just go crash at his friend's house.
He wanted to see his friends too and I see him just about every weekend, so I wasn't pushing him to come see me because he was just trying to do it all at once.
Can't fault a guy for that.
It's also extremely nice to have a boyfriend who goes above and beyond to try and see me...haven't had that in a LONG time.  Possibly ever.
I seriously think I'm on a really good road here.
Hmm.