The "D" Word.

So, it's not secret I've developed a slight aversion to dating...ok maybe "developed" is the wrong word.
"have had for quite some time but recently was seriously reignited" is probably a lot more accurate.
after the Anthony & Nate debacles, I was pretty much done.
No more dating. No more relationships. No more heartbreak. Just not interested in what it had to offer.
Too bad that lasted only a month.
It was a quick, fairly easy-definitely not painless-but quick and easy getting over Nate the second time.
Taking a step back and taking emotions out of it, it was easy to see how actually NOT awesome he was, thus helping me to expedite what could've been a rather long process.
However, I met a cute guy on Friday and we went out on Sunday.
We (obviously) aren't dating yet, or anywhere close, but we are talking and flirting.
I'm enjoying myself. It's nice. I'm not running away or huddling in the fetal position in fear.
It really helps he seems to sense that I'm a flight risk of sorts and is not pushing anything too much.
Chatting at the gym yesterday, texting throughout the day today...not too much but not too little either.
I am enjoying re-learning what it feels to have a new crush, full of possibilities and the silly feelings that accompany it.
If I learned anything from the mess with Nate, it was not to push anything. (& okay, so maybe the New Boy & I kissed some on Sunday. I just like to find out if that works.)
To move slowly. To not  rush into a relationship. To give things time to grow and develop.
So, despite the fact it's obvious we are interested in each other, I'm just gonna let it go with this guy and see what happens.
I'm just proud of myself I'm not longer living in fear of dating.
This is big.